Monday, January 12, 2009

Who am I?

Most importantly, I am a Mom to the three most gorgeous, clever and inspiring boys. I am often stressed, often haggard, often over-extended. I am always apologizing, always juggling, always feeling guilty. I am a lover of books, great drama, soulful music, the simplicity of nature and awe-inspiring scenery. I am too tired to go out, but tired of staying in. Struggling to keep up, refusing to give up. Searching for knowledge and sharing information. A loyal friend with no time for shallow phoniness. I'm a people-watcher, backseat driver, pop culture junkie and gluton for punishment. I cry watching phone commercials, get goosebumps in church, laugh at people falling down and stay awake at night with my thoughts full of fear for my boys' future.



I'm just a girl who grew up too quick, who couldn't turn her back on the underdog, who had big dreams, but never knew what she wanted. Who fell in love with her best friend and still bickers with him like they were pre-teens. Who's had her heart broken but fills it everyday with sticky boy kisses. Who married young with aspirations of seeing the world when the kids flew the coop. Who is now accepting that there is more beauty in her family home than she would ever see from an airplane. Who believes that in life's most difficult moments, there is someone out there who keeps opening a new door. Still learning. Still trying to figure it out. Still hoping for better.

I'm not just a mom. I'm Stacey.

6 comments:

  1. Yes, there's no doubt about it...you could be my sister...you just made me cry this morning. Beautiful descrpition... many women feel this way. Please keep writing!

    Jane

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  2. that was brilliant. it gave me chills.

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  3. Stacy that is really wonderful...and you sound simply wonderful!

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  4. that's awesome! What a great picture you painted with your words.

    Nice to "meet you"!

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  5. lovely post! although i still yearn to travel i see that life at home with my son is quite nice and i hope that i eventually have more children to fill our lives :)

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  6. Hey Stacie, glad I ran across this. I found the Willowjack boys the other day but I think I like this one: it is about you. I understand. Some times I just wanted to be Me, not someone's mom, not someone's wife or girlfriend. Just me. Sometimes we lose ourselves in our wonderful motherhood and we have to step back and realize that was a ME before there was an US. Keep on. You sound wonderful.

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